Respect for the person as a whole !!!

I still remember, it was saturday morning... Gym was not crowded as usual...I had seen him already manier times in Gym ... He was damn handsome, my mind had already noted that but quite elder for me i guess ... hehehehe ( Sorry but Dil kabhi ganda, kabhi hai nek banda, Dil ka bharosa kaise koi kare ...:P ) ...

He was a marathi movie actor & had played role in one or two hindi movies also ... & there is one quite famous Marathi movie of him was about to release that time (today i wrote the blog because just now read a review of movie written by one of friends).... I was quite unaware of those things... Rather i was about to say him you look like tht RDB actor... heheheh ... But i didn't ...

That was a saturday i still remember ... Our gym has 4 parts ... Me & the actor was doing excercise in same part ... Head of Gym was also there ( Yes, Head is always there along with him how come i didn't noticed, God knows :P )... I completed that part & went on upper floor....


I was just talking non sense with my instructor as on saturday gym is almost vacant in the morning & i was feeling pakofy to excercise ... & he came in my mind i asked my Instructor " Hey, the person looks like RDB hero, have you noticed that ? " .. He started laughing, he said " woooooooooo, didn't you realise the person is the same actor" ... hehehe ...even i was shocked ...not by knowing that He was actor but thought that i was about to ask him YOU LOOK LIKE THAT RDB HERO ... hehehhehe :)

& The actor came on upper floor where i was doing excercise... I & my Gym instructor were trying to keep our expression as normal as possible ... & i guess we were successful ... The actor did some excercise ... & he lied on excercise mat sometime for relaxtion after workout ... & he got up ... he started folding that Excercise mat ... Nobody ever cares to fold those mats before leaving ( including me) ... My instructor said in astonished looks, " राहू द्या, सर" ... He said in smiling face, " नाही, ठीक आहे ना " & he folded it & kept on the place & he left :)

& Sudden i felt a respect ... But it was a kind of differet respect ... generally people respect the designation of the person, the authority of the person, the status in society of the person & lot of other reason ... & i realised it was a RESPECT i felt for the person as a whole & not for who he is or what his status in the society ... Hats off Sir !!!

Priceless Gifts !!!

"Some gifts in life are priceless & life's best gifts are free!!!"

I had heard this before but today, i myself gave the priceless gift to somebody unknowingly ...

Nothing was been said but everthing was been heard ... Speechless moments are most cherishable moments in Life, i feel ... Again how strange but how true !!! Destiny (or God) had played its dice ... made me speechless ... & again surprised me as usual !!! ...

Oh oh, the God was present at that place...did anybody notice that ? :)

Chocolate Wrapper !!!

Today again there is an urge to write & this place is where i can write all my stupidity, immaturity or so called puerile (somebody has suggested the word for my behaviour which is inbetween innocence & maturity ... hehehe :P)

I was already late to catch the Boriwali bus while returning ... was waiting for the bus since from 45 minutes along with other people ... I had already decided whichever bus comes i will go ...the Bus stop where i find all kind of people of different age, sex , religion & yes a very important from different economical classes (eventhough its my own choice to travel with this strata) .... me having a dress code .. kind of formal ( kind of boring ... hehehe ) ... but then yes it gives you an elegant look & yes the elegancy reflects in eyes of the people travelling along wid me right from the conductor to the people in bus ...



Ac 700 came ... the bus in which everybody doesn't get into bcause of its double fare as compared to normal Asiad bus (It doesnt mean i am rich but yes i can afford to go i know). As soon as the bus came eventhough almost 15-20 people were waiting for the bus departuring towards same destination but only 3 went ahead to get into bus ...1st me, 2nd one was a housewife ( kind of ok sort of woman) & 3rd one was Bhajiwali (She was quite late i guess ... was trying to judge her eager expressions... bad na ... i have habit of observing what is there in people's mind ;) can't help )

The door opened... i entered ...bus was crowded but couldn't help ...In Ac bus even crowd is something different ... kind of attitude...may be... i am not getting words... after me tht Woman entered & that bhajiwali still standing on Bus stop - asked " मास्तर, बस बोरिवलीला जाईल ना ? " The conductor said, " नाही, नाही जाणार" & driver closed the door of Bus ... I was confused ... My reflex pushed me towards the door ( direct from the spinal cord... hehehhe) & that conductor said sudddenly, " मॅडम, बोरिवलीच बस आहे, घाबरू नका" ... i took ticket ...was still surprised, confused ... the lady juz entered after me was standing in full on attitude (I still cant show that attitude i feel.. but will try to be expert in that .... hehehehee)


After sometime the condutor came near the door & made a statement to teh driver , " भाजीवाली मावशीला ticket चा rate माहीत आहे का? " & they both laughed... I felt something cheap ...come on you are just a conductor & driver ...who the hell are you to set the economic condition of tht Vendor ....rather who the hell are you to lie tht lady (Bhajiwali). I wanted to say that hello idiots, When there is an emergency even people from low economic background do pay high bus fares ... but didn't say that ... :(

& I felt this scenario is almsot everywhere ... People are giving lot of value to external apperance which matters for them & then i felt the way children judge the chocolate from its wrapper, people judge your status from your appearance ...which is totally against of my own nature ... total idiotness i felt ... means Hey come on apperance matters i do agree but then come on it's not a judging criteria for someone.... idiot people, idiot thinking ... I felt like puking at them ... specially on their external appearances ..... hehehhehee !!!

Pure confessions & Pure heart & Pure people .....& I love them alot !!!

I wanted to write this blog from so many days but however i was not able to write that I guess because today's incident was supposed to happen ...

When there was nothing, i had suggested "him" a movie ( i dont know there was something or not as i dont suggest movies to everybody & imporatant is even he doesn't watch movie on recommentdation of others still he did so dont know ...:D) .... After watching the Movie he said it was just ok ok ... i felt ok ... may be it's not necessary people should like what i like ... & just few days before following conversation occured.

He : " Do you remember that movie you had recommended me ? "

I : " yes, you didn't like it much, no ? "

He : " Actually i had liked that movie alot but didnt say that " .....

i asked him "y so?" he said " juz ego" ....His expressions were mellow.

I asked him mischievously, " So What happened now ? How did you feel to tell me this thing now at these hrs ? "

He said, " now there is no ego. I can't keep my ego high infront of you " .... i was amazed ..started laughing .... rather cant say what was that feeling .... but i had liked that confession ....soemthing Pure ... a pure confession i felt ......

& today same thing happened & i again experienced a pure confession....

My mom .... an integral part of mine ... a person who can understand every feeling of mine without saying a single word ..... but then i have heard somewhere "those closest to you hurt you the most" ...& Mom did it today ...it was something deep wound ...... quite ....quite deep cut ....

I call my mom " branded " ..... bcause she fixed perectly into the phrase " simple living, high thinking" but when thinking got so higher sometimes she doesn't understnad it hurts ...... even i was angry ..... I said " Fine, from now onwards i wont pick up a single call from you unless & untill i get a good job" & i left my home without saying a single word ....tried to call "him" ( something inner voice told me to call him because i knew what i was doing is wrong & he will make me understand this thing but i wanted him to make me understand rather than understanding myself) ..... but he didnt pick up .... i cried ... the entire road i was crying.....dont know why ......

I sat in thane bus but was still feeling low & after some time he called me & tried to make me understand . I did listen to him but was not agree with him .... it was deep hurt ....quite deep .... but he knows how to cheer me up ..... ( i know he exactly knows how to make me happy )

When i was talking with him Mom called thrice & even dad .... but i didnt pick up ..... When i reached office ...my boss was behind but dont know what happened i picked up her call. She was crying .... " why are you not picking up call? you know how i am? How could you say this Dont call me ever ? I did mistake but then ....( She was crying that time also ... ) " . i said, " hmmm ...बस आता ... विसरून जा ... dont take tension & dont cry ok ..... i have picked up your call ... & i am fine " ...... i smiled .... she also smiled .... I said " chal my boss is just behidn me . Will talk to you later. & take your breakast now ( i know she had not a single bite without talking to me ) " ..... & again i had same feeling .....soemthing Pure ... a pure confession ......

Both persons are (& will )so important for me .... n i felt there is lot pure ..... Pure confessions & Pure heart & Pure people .....& i understood why do i love them alot !!!

Life will never be the same again ...... :)

Do you believe in destiny ? If no then surely you should read the story .....

There was no connection between the two .... Two almost opposite people in 2 different worlds ..... She was fully busy in her own world dancing on Moon & Queen of her own world & same with him but there was something unique about him which in a moment can attract anybody ....... God knows why did they crash .... It was juz hi hello initially ....rather in between few months there was not even single talk eventhough they knew each other kind of... but god had played already his dice by bringing them together ......

He put a media called Trek.... She never thought that was one of reasons why did they start talking in more flawless manner ..... Rather it was quite strange that destiny made them to talk on last day also when she was leaving for Himalaya trek justfew minutes before leaving; rather the day when she returned from trek that day also they did talk ....but neither she nor he noted the thing.....

She was feeling ok sort of banda hain, can talk with him safely .... But NO ....God's mind was thinking something else , something really weired (this is the word she used to use for him :) ) ......... he was stranger for her (She used to say I dont know anything about you & he used to reply tell me what do you want to know but the hell is why the girl wanted to know about him even she didnt think much that time) but still she found him quite graceful ......

Things were moving fast ( rather quite fast ) ..... they were coming close relationshipwise ..... Simple dinner menu to every small thing was being shared, every small happiness was being shared, every small problem was being discussed....everything ...... ( & still both were unaware that they both had started feeling for each other....) .....rather they had started talking like " If ( that IF was always there ) something happen between us in future then .... " Her mind knew it was something differnt .... not mere friendship .... it was something differnt .....something really differnt that she never ever felt for somebody ( how strange your mind knows your feelings more than yourself ) but for a moment she was scared also .... Rather strange was that she told him they should not talk much about Us thing as she is inclining towards him & may be it was not good for him. ...... but when you are loved, there’s no need at all to understand what’s happening, because everything happens within you........ ( Was she really in love ??? )

She started thinking ( her mind was already well aware of things but now brain started thinking what is actually going on ) ......
" Yeh kya ho raha hain ? .... rather itana kyun fast ho raha hain ??? am i in Love ? mi ghai karte aaeh ka ? but why the hell am i missing him if i dont talk with him ( especially why the hell i was missing him during his exams when there was limited talk ) ; rather why am i waiting for him ...... means see, we are good friends .....but then i have good friends ...... Never had tht feeling for them, then why ? ......Kitne friends se milti hu then why such a feeling now ...... Do agree he made me too cool, changed me in drastic manner, life perspectives were changing, but then its not the same & most important why the hell am i crossing so many miles juz to meet him when he asked me to come out with him ..... without reason ? ..... & why the hell am i seeing in mirror whether am i looking good ( changed the shirt twice ?? what was that ) "

& after that everything happened like it has to be happen ...... She got trainee opportunity at same place near to his home ( was not that destiny ? - Destiny wanted them to spent time together) .....Every single day they did meet .... they were talking non sense like ppl do talk in relationship (rather this is most sensible thing now) ..... but still all official cluases were there (those IF conditions) ....

She wanted him to propose her as it was quite difficult for her to hold back such feelings & he was juz ( no words ) .... for a moment she also felt may be the feelings are only from her side ...... So she decided something ..... She told him everything what she was feeling ( that was actually quite strnage because she was not supposed to propose anybody as said by herself) ..... but put condition he won't ask anything about it afterwards ....... & most important he did not ....not even a single word he asked ( it was a kind of respect for the feelings she had for him .... that was also one of the reasons which made her liking him more) ..... but that day he assured one thing that he is also feeling the same way she was feeling for him.... that day she seriosuly missed her some heatbeats when she understood wht did he say actaully .......

Then one incident happened between them which was between official & unoffical clauses & turned the entire scenario ..... He thought she is angry ( He asked her ) but she was happy ( She was also thinking why the hell am i happy even though she did not say that ) ..... but yeah She reminded him clauses ..... he asked " Do you really feel clauses are there ? & all clauses officially will be removed in next meeting" & as he had said he removed all cluases in next meeting (by officially proposing her :) ) ......

After that every moment they spent was precious & that every meeting was special ...... rather every small thing in life had become so much important, so much precious ..... the CCD where he proposed her was the world's best place she ever known , that walk along with him , open caffe, review of everyday, to find best moment of every meeting .... everything was important, everything was special & yes beautiful ... she thought when you are in love, things make even more sense .....

All those feelings were quite unspoken & she could not believe somebody is so much imp for her today & 4 days of his trip at Goa were so long ..... ultimately her mind & brain both were synchronizing....& they both ( Mind & brain ) announced that she was in love. She had understood life will never be the same again ....... :) ...... this walk is not momentary ..... journey of being with him for life long has already been started ( without even knowing both of them ) ..... & on every turn of the road he will be along with her .....

A blessing ..... which stunned me !!!

Today is a strong urge to write this ( the urge was so much that i kept my pending blog also aside & writing this ) ..... My building ....means it's not about that building only its all about memories i do have in this building .......since from age of five i am here .....Most of the building people are still same except few new ones .......

Strange thing is that there is one flat in our building where people used to keep on changing but this time in last few years same people living ....A Marwadi family (no offences please) ... a typical one .....lot of cillamchilli ..... A big family ..... Means family is actually small .....Dad , mom , 2 sons, 1 daughter & yeah there is one Granny (Dadi) also but their relatives are so much frequent visitors that i first used to think they all live together :) ......

So the story was abt the granny .. juz at the ground floor of our building there is one place to sit where she sits everyday & whenever I enter my building she is there most of the times . I do give her a big smile ( i myself dont knwo why but it's quite spontaneous or may be just a kind of respect .... dont know much as i never thought over that ) irrepsective of i am tired, having heavy luggage , talking on cell or any excuse but neither i dared to speak with her ( one reason is i can't understand marwadi properly ) nor she tried. It is juz that she always raises her hand for blessing ( dur se hi) .......

But suddenly i felt something differnt day before yesterday ( kind of happy as after 4 days "we" were meeting) ..... As ususal i entered the building gate & as usual she blessed me & suddenly i felt the blessing has something quite pure .....means blessing is never an impure but still something different essence, something quite secret ( like me standing in front of SunGod & he is allowing to absorb as much as energy i can for rejuvenation) .... but i had same feeling when my parents ( especialy when my mom blesses me in differnt way - she taps her hand twice on my head; without that her blessing doesnt complete ..... Strange but true .....hehehhe ), my 2 school teachers & my Granny ( Nani) do bless me & now same feeling for this old lady also ..... god knows how come .....

Pending blog .....

One blog i wana write for somebody or may be for myself ( sometimes you dont understand you are doing things for yourself or for somebody else .... a nice feeling ;) ) . Me thinking to write it since so many days & generally i always write quite spontaneously but its quite difficult to express feelings in words this time ...... .:) ........will write soon .....