Chocolate Wrapper !!!

Today again there is an urge to write & this place is where i can write all my stupidity, immaturity or so called puerile (somebody has suggested the word for my behaviour which is inbetween innocence & maturity ... hehehe :P)

I was already late to catch the Boriwali bus while returning ... was waiting for the bus since from 45 minutes along with other people ... I had already decided whichever bus comes i will go ...the Bus stop where i find all kind of people of different age, sex , religion & yes a very important from different economical classes (eventhough its my own choice to travel with this strata) .... me having a dress code .. kind of formal ( kind of boring ... hehehe ) ... but then yes it gives you an elegant look & yes the elegancy reflects in eyes of the people travelling along wid me right from the conductor to the people in bus ...



Ac 700 came ... the bus in which everybody doesn't get into bcause of its double fare as compared to normal Asiad bus (It doesnt mean i am rich but yes i can afford to go i know). As soon as the bus came eventhough almost 15-20 people were waiting for the bus departuring towards same destination but only 3 went ahead to get into bus ...1st me, 2nd one was a housewife ( kind of ok sort of woman) & 3rd one was Bhajiwali (She was quite late i guess ... was trying to judge her eager expressions... bad na ... i have habit of observing what is there in people's mind ;) can't help )

The door opened... i entered ...bus was crowded but couldn't help ...In Ac bus even crowd is something different ... kind of attitude...may be... i am not getting words... after me tht Woman entered & that bhajiwali still standing on Bus stop - asked " मास्तर, बस बोरिवलीला जाईल ना ? " The conductor said, " नाही, नाही जाणार" & driver closed the door of Bus ... I was confused ... My reflex pushed me towards the door ( direct from the spinal cord... hehehhe) & that conductor said sudddenly, " मॅडम, बोरिवलीच बस आहे, घाबरू नका" ... i took ticket ...was still surprised, confused ... the lady juz entered after me was standing in full on attitude (I still cant show that attitude i feel.. but will try to be expert in that .... hehehehee)


After sometime the condutor came near the door & made a statement to teh driver , " भाजीवाली मावशीला ticket चा rate माहीत आहे का? " & they both laughed... I felt something cheap ...come on you are just a conductor & driver ...who the hell are you to set the economic condition of tht Vendor ....rather who the hell are you to lie tht lady (Bhajiwali). I wanted to say that hello idiots, When there is an emergency even people from low economic background do pay high bus fares ... but didn't say that ... :(

& I felt this scenario is almsot everywhere ... People are giving lot of value to external apperance which matters for them & then i felt the way children judge the chocolate from its wrapper, people judge your status from your appearance ...which is totally against of my own nature ... total idiotness i felt ... means Hey come on apperance matters i do agree but then come on it's not a judging criteria for someone.... idiot people, idiot thinking ... I felt like puking at them ... specially on their external appearances ..... hehehhehee !!!

Pure confessions & Pure heart & Pure people .....& I love them alot !!!

I wanted to write this blog from so many days but however i was not able to write that I guess because today's incident was supposed to happen ...

When there was nothing, i had suggested "him" a movie ( i dont know there was something or not as i dont suggest movies to everybody & imporatant is even he doesn't watch movie on recommentdation of others still he did so dont know ...:D) .... After watching the Movie he said it was just ok ok ... i felt ok ... may be it's not necessary people should like what i like ... & just few days before following conversation occured.

He : " Do you remember that movie you had recommended me ? "

I : " yes, you didn't like it much, no ? "

He : " Actually i had liked that movie alot but didnt say that " .....

i asked him "y so?" he said " juz ego" ....His expressions were mellow.

I asked him mischievously, " So What happened now ? How did you feel to tell me this thing now at these hrs ? "

He said, " now there is no ego. I can't keep my ego high infront of you " .... i was amazed ..started laughing .... rather cant say what was that feeling .... but i had liked that confession ....soemthing Pure ... a pure confession i felt ......

& today same thing happened & i again experienced a pure confession....

My mom .... an integral part of mine ... a person who can understand every feeling of mine without saying a single word ..... but then i have heard somewhere "those closest to you hurt you the most" ...& Mom did it today ...it was something deep wound ...... quite ....quite deep cut ....

I call my mom " branded " ..... bcause she fixed perectly into the phrase " simple living, high thinking" but when thinking got so higher sometimes she doesn't understnad it hurts ...... even i was angry ..... I said " Fine, from now onwards i wont pick up a single call from you unless & untill i get a good job" & i left my home without saying a single word ....tried to call "him" ( something inner voice told me to call him because i knew what i was doing is wrong & he will make me understand this thing but i wanted him to make me understand rather than understanding myself) ..... but he didnt pick up .... i cried ... the entire road i was crying.....dont know why ......

I sat in thane bus but was still feeling low & after some time he called me & tried to make me understand . I did listen to him but was not agree with him .... it was deep hurt ....quite deep .... but he knows how to cheer me up ..... ( i know he exactly knows how to make me happy )

When i was talking with him Mom called thrice & even dad .... but i didnt pick up ..... When i reached office ...my boss was behind but dont know what happened i picked up her call. She was crying .... " why are you not picking up call? you know how i am? How could you say this Dont call me ever ? I did mistake but then ....( She was crying that time also ... ) " . i said, " hmmm ...बस आता ... विसरून जा ... dont take tension & dont cry ok ..... i have picked up your call ... & i am fine " ...... i smiled .... she also smiled .... I said " chal my boss is just behidn me . Will talk to you later. & take your breakast now ( i know she had not a single bite without talking to me ) " ..... & again i had same feeling .....soemthing Pure ... a pure confession ......

Both persons are (& will )so important for me .... n i felt there is lot pure ..... Pure confessions & Pure heart & Pure people .....& i understood why do i love them alot !!!