Emotional Atyachaar .....

My monitor was in front of me ... but i was not worried as already been selected for my dream company (eventhough on basic position) & was about to join it in few days ...... just had finished with quick lunch & we were trying to finish work as soon as possible ....


My phone screamed like hell .... Unknown no. ..... hehehe It's so funny, there is a phase in life when unknown no. has lot imporatance than the known no. ..... Call from one of the big shot pharma companies ....woooooooooo ... That too for one level higher designation & with higher salary .... My heart was running like fast local .... I was trying to recollect who has fwd my CV .... I recollected ... How strange it is when some people know you & your potential, still they deny to help you & some people dont even know you but just know your potential still they give best try for you ......


but Something weird was going on ... Fire brigade alarm was screaming in my Brain, "You have already been committed sweetheart.... tell them .... tell them... tell them " ... & I told them :( .... I still don't know whether the decision was right or wrong ...but that time i felt Omens were whispering whatever is happening is right ....& I always follow them ...

& suddenly I realised that its an Emotional Atyachaar .... a serial on UTV bindaas .... in this serial one of the partners does test on the another partner in relationship whether he/she is not betraying along with him/her by falling them in tempating situations.

I realised Kind of same thing had happened with me .... Suspect was me & suspecter was God .... he also showed me a temptation & was checking whether i fall for that temptation... he was checking whether i am awaken for my principles ... for my promise ... for my upbringing ..... It was a TEST .... Even god saw... I was shakable but not fell for his temptation ... I was wide awaken ... I don't know what will be future ...I asked Dad also after that .. Dad said , "its your Dream company .... don't break the trust .... Salary & designation dont matter still ....It is just a beginning of your career ".... Called Shrikant also to recheck my decision ...He also said same thing & .......... after that I suddenly felt everything positive like everything is happening for sake of good .... afterall Good Omens do speak ...I guess I passed his Test of Emotional Atyachaar, what says ? .... ;)

Believe It or Not .....Numerology :)

Believe on nemerology ? Nope .... I dont believe on Ghosts also, how come i believe on numerology ...heehehehhe .....

Own Birth date : 25/12/1986 = 2+5+1+2+1+9+8+6 = 34= 3+4= 7

Brother Birth Date : 14/ 11/1979 = 1+4+1+1+1+9+7+9 = 34= 3+4= 7

Mom Dad marriage anniversary = 26/03/1976 = 2+6+0+3+1+9+7+6= 34 = 3+4= 7

Passposrt issue date 28/07/2006 = 28/07/2006 = 2+8+0+7+2+0+0+6 = 25=2+5 = 7

Passposrt expiry date = 27/07/2016 = 2+7+0+7+ 2+0+1+6 = 25=2+5=7

Cranfield Msc Examination No. = 6721 = 6+7+2+1 =16 = 1+6= 7

Msc Examination Room No. = 25 = 2+5 =7

My 1st national Trek group no. = 16= 1+6 =7

My seat no. of train when departure for Sarpass ( I had not reserved the seats) = 25= 2+5=7

1st time came 1st from all divisions ( I was first before that also but not from all divisions :D ) = 7th

& there are 1000s of other incidents ( or coincidents ? ) which made me think whether they are coincidents only or digits are wispering as good omens ..... :) .... for example sum of all digits of my 20 Rs. bus ticket no. was also 7 when i was going for interview ( then you can guess results of my interview also :) ).... Its working something like this ..... Omens are screaming .....Believe It or Not !

There is a long way to go yet !!! ....

9/03/2010 ....

Journey has been started now .......

I know There is a long way to go yet but I want to enjoy every moment of this journey & I am sure there is a bright Dawn at the end !!!

But again Omens calling for PATIENCE ( Oh god give me strength to have that ....) ....... but you know when there is long way of patience you get desperate ....more than needed ......Have you ever experienced when your body shows you are patient & soul screams dersperation ? .....Come on I am also a human being .... but I am not good actor .....i guess I need to be

one :)

Yeh hai Mumbai meri jaan ......

"Aye dil hai mushkil jeena yahan Zara hat ke zara bach ke, yeh hai Mumbai meri jaan"

I born in Mumbai, educated in Mumbai & now .... work in Mumbai & for every moment of life I loved the City from the bottom of my heart. My outsider friends do ask me what is there in Mumbai that you love the city so much .... Rush, traffic, slum, small houses .... ? I generally don't answer this Question because I dont know why do I love the city so much .... Somebody has said I love you because I love you .....may be the same way I love the city ... I love it because I love it.... that's it ....

There is something in this city which always make me feel it's MY city ... my OWN....& I read a news some days before (when the all the politicians are fighting) Asha Bhosale - One of the real Mumbaikars - stated, "Mumbai is for all who work Hard"

& i felt very true .....The city is for all who work hard ... for all who want to walk tirelessly to achieve their dreams... for all who want to grow against every suppression ... for all who want to be Best against every worst ... for all who want to rise up against every fall & for all who think Human is only religion & culture & every Human has right to live in the way he wants. ..... Mumbai is for all of them & all of them are for Mumbai .... !!!

& Omens again whispered ...... Forgiveness ....

Read 2 states some months before ...The novel could not impress me as previous masterpieces of Chetan ... but still i remember one incident from the book ....when the Priest made understand the Krish( Hero of 2 states) the imporatance of Forgiveness ... It was something like this .... Remove the bags of anger, pain & forgive people because it will be good for you only .....


& today read ( Still reading the book :P ) a paragraph from Shantaram (Bit modified) .....
"What characterise the human race more, cruelty or the capacity to feel shame for it? ... but it is not cruelty or the capacity to feel shame for it chracterises the human race. Its forgiveness that makes us what we are... Without forgiveness, out species would have annihilated itself in endless retributions ... Without forgiveness, there would be no History...Without that hope, there would be no art, every work of art is in some way the act of forgiveness ...Without that dream, there would be no love, every act of love is in some way a promise to forgive ... We live on because we can love, & we love because we can forgive"



What's going on ? Why these things are bothering me ....Why when Forgiveness comes i do stuck everytime .... Whom i have not forgiven yet ? Do i know ? I know ...may be ... Am i denying that i couldn't forgive the person yet ... Good Omens are again wispering " FORGIVE please.... Its good for you." ....but Is it in my hand ? Am i really that good ? I dont think so ....But what's wrong in that ... I am quite young to forgive, don't you think so ? ...May be i need more time ...may be i need to grow up more to do that .... may be i need to be more mature .... but one thing is for sure, It's not that easy as it seems .... neither now nor then !!!

Jellyfishes ...

Was not feeling well ... Mom threw an ultimate dialogue, "You have become patient while dealing with patients, what's going on, you ate anything out ? " ... Genrally I laugh on such dialogues of her .... but i frowned that day & switched on TV ... Watching may be a wrong verb i guess .... i was just jumping from one to another channel ... Ultimately after 300 channels, i stopped on Discovery .... Wwwwwoooooo amazingggggggg .... entire large swarm of Jellyfishes ... beauuuuuuuutttttiiiiiful !!!

I feel Jellyfishes are the most fantabulous sea animals, existing right from deep to shallow waters of all sea oceans. Important is the beauuuuutiful animals are capable of sting. Yes sweetheart they do sting ... rather all of them do!!! It is totally another question that the sting effects range - right from no effect to extreme pain to death ...

& I thought kind of same fantabulousity occurs in Human beings also ..... because they all sting for sure or in more appropriate words they all are capable of sting ( obviously some exceptions are there - all near & dear loved ones - I know they will never ever sting me at any moment of life) but i realised that i am not scared of their sting but effects of their sting....No effect or extreme pain or death is the only & important question, what says ? :)

Hats off :)

A random thought ...

In life you will get very few people who are good friends, good tutors, good consultants & good persons simultaneously ... especially when you need them they wont say, "you always turn up when you are in need" or they dont pretend like others that we need them but they just smile at you & say "Hey Hi !!! :) just tell me " ...... hats off to them ... :)